GONE baby GONE

Happy New Month everybody! It's May. I must confess I usually have a cold feet for this month. Tight knot in my tummy, sometimes increased heart beat- creepy in short. You'll wonder why. I noticed for some years now that the month of May for me just doesn't come out right; from unfortunate events, to bad news, to next to nothing in my bank account- upside down emotions and the list goes on. I don't want to go into the details. i Know this month is some people's favorite; your birthdays, wedding anniversary, blabla- one man's food is another's poison they say. I rejoice with you guys. May you have it pleasant all the way. Me too.

I remember approaching May some days back and my heart started raising. What would May hold this year? Well I'm just a few days into it, but I got to spill this already. I got hold of the balls of the 'whatever it is that's trying to get at me' two nights ago. I was awake, didn't sleep; about an hour past mid-night, no lights on- afraid, alone. I started talking to the one in charge of seasons, months, days and moments. God I mean. I let out my fears, I contemplated His awesomeness, I reminded myself of His promises. Even if the mountains were moved, His loving kindness would not depart from me. His word says so. I started feeling sleepy, although I was initially scared to sleep- I kept telling me what His word says. I woke up the next morning with a lovely smile and with relief in my heart. Also with strength to go through the month and on from there. He is more than able to keep all of His own. Of which I am a bonafide part of- gratefully.

So, what's your creepy thingy? May not be a month, whatever it is, as vivid and real as it may be- you got someone who is for you. Hear His words; GOD IS our Refuge and Strength, a very present and well-proved help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change and though the mountains be shaken into the midst of the seas, Though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble at its swelling and tumult. God is in the midst of us, we shall not be moved; God will help us right early. The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our Refuge (our Fortress and High Tower). Let be and be still, and know (recognize and understand) that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations! I will be exalted in the earth! T Selah [pause, and calmly think of that]!

So I share the month's good news; the fear is gone baby gone.